Pay IVF

I got endiometriosis I payed the operation I was dating but he didn’t wanted to adopted he left to Europe. We tried 4 ivfs even though I wasn’t successful I got into the debt and paid half with the money I am planning to pay what I owe because he took of to Europe after I loss my job and I would love to come back and adopt a child not a baby . A grown up boy or girl it doesn’t matter . Please grant me that wish . I am coming back to work as an accountant